だが断る。

Me, unmedicated: Blurgh, I don't want to do the thing
Still me, still unmedicated: *struggles to force myself to even START doing the thing*
Me: why can't I do the thiiiiiiiiiing aughhhhhhhhh
If Me manages to start the thing...
Me: *feeling physical and mental and emotional anguish and pain while doing the thing, thereby making it go by even slower* auughhhHHHHHH

Me, yesterday: Blurgh, I don't want to do the thing
Still me, but medicated: *procrastinates a bit, but still starts the thing eventually*
Me, doing the thing: blurghhhh I don't wanna be doing this right now blurghhhhh but I'm doing it (even though I still have to finish it tomorrow)

Me, today, medicated: blurghhhhh I still don't wanna do the thing
Me, poking around the internet for a bit, trying to work up the motivation to work: blurghhhhhh I still don't wanna do the thing but I'm starting to feel like it a little bit just by moving around, I guess I gotta do it aughhhh

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Seriously, the concept of "I don't want to do the thing, but I can still do it" is so foreign to me. What do you mean you can still do it? Even if you don't wanna? And it doesn't feel like pulling teeth, just feeling lazy and unmotivated but still doing it? What? What?